end of school days

i started analysing about my life when i was just 8 and then firstly i wish to become taller coz at my terrace i was not enough taller to see behind the wall of my terrace i was evryday exclaimed wat is behind this wall.
              then i thought one day i will be taller and more elder....

when i became of 11 then i watched my elder brothers going out of home and doing fun with his frndzz ...i thought to go to my  frnd house but parents dont allowed me 2 go outside coz i was not enough responsible and elder
             then i thought one day i will be responsible and more elder..

when i came at age 13 i watched my seniours hanging out with thier girl friends..i  also started watching girls but nooe was my girlfriend..coz i was not enough 2 make my own girlfriend...
            then i thought one day i will be more elder 2 make my own girlfriend..


now ,,i am at 18 i had many gf in my life and i love solely to all of them..responsibilty started making my shoulder more heavier than those wen i was at 8 or 12 years old ..now i want my life shud stop at this stage coz i dont want to become more elder than today coz i know i will be pushed in many responsibilities later if i grow more...i want 2 njoy my life and live king size ...i love my gf still but my story has came to an end point...i feel depressed many times in my love life...


 so grow fast in early days and stop growing from 18.....dont love someone more than your god coz he created u and sent u to earn blessings in this world..dont feel bad at bad moments .....be khush